anxiety – Secret Thoughts Within

Ricochet

My thoughts ricochet around the room and I try chasing every one of them down – I’ve never been very good at leaving a thousand thoughts alone

The numbers on the clock change again I watched them tick over reminding me that another minute has passed and I’m still awake I observe my staccato thoughts wondering how to quiet this frantic mind My brain talks with my anxiety about possible futures – they’re all what ifs and maybes of things that haven’t happened and I can’t control The numbers on the clock change again the one constant force in life theContinue reading “The Clock”

Carry Me Towards the Light

Will you come looking for me when I find myself lost in the darkness? Because there are times when I slip down deep into the abyss I hope you will be brave enough to climb down take my hand show me the way outand if I can’t stand please hold me tightand carry me towards the lightContinue reading “Carry Me Towards the Light”

Internal Wars

Swarming, Swarming Crawling inside me My thoughts scratch along my veins Becoming chains. Drowning, Drowning Underneath all my failures I’ve been in this place before So insecure Looking in the mirror The pressure is so severe, Time to eliminate those thoughts Before I disappear; I will not hold myself hostage And become a prisoner ofContinue reading “Internal Wars”

Through the dark night

You look at me with wild eyes willing me to say something anything at all really. You are hoping to find a magic cure in my words. Magic words… if only they could take away the panic in your mind. I know you don’t believe me but if you can just get through this nightContinue reading “Through the dark night”

Steady

“Steady”, I tell myself. “You might be quaking in your soul, but you will not fall. Steady. Hold. Those thoughts are shaking you around, but grab them by the reins and bring them back under control. Hold fast baby-girl, you’ve got this.”