Unkind Years (with audio)

He keeps fading
I’m watching it happen before my eyes
I wonder if he is silently fading from me too
He keeps so many of his thoughts inside
I’m always the last to know what’s going on

Every morning I see less joy in his eyes
He slogs the day out
pushing himself in a job he hates
for a family who needs him to keep going

He only touches me when he wants sex
there is no romance or pursuit in his eyes
There’s none in mine either
we are both too tired, too familiar
to put in any significant effort
I wonder how long we can continue

I wonder if he’ll leave me one day
Be drawn by the allure of someone more vibrant
who has more energy
who can make him feel more powerful
and bring light into his days

These years are unkind to him
to me
to us
We keep telling each other it’ll get better
I wonder 
if we’re only fooling ourselves

25 thoughts on “Unkind Years (with audio)

  1. Secrets, I so loved this piece!! You left me so many seeds of inspiration to plant and tend!! Yeah!! I will share the tender sprouts with you and see what your green thumb can do!!! Hope all is well with you and that you are safe, My Dear!!
    😊💕🌹🌹

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  2. A fascinating read. A depth and directness of free flowing thought that strikes at the heart of loneliness for one in a questionable relationship.
    I’m very curious how close to home this is for you. But I wouldn’t dare ask in a public forum.
    Great work Bree 💚

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    1. Hi Lisa, this is one of those pieces that I am saddened when people relate to it. However, I think it’s also important to give a voice to these thoughts. Thank you for sharing your reflections with me 💜

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